I already miss the boost I had the first few days of no PMO

Hey guys,

Like I stated in the title, the first few days was so awesome. I was starting conversations with strangers. My words were so clear, my vocabulary so good, no stuttering or no shakiness in my voice. That made me so happy I even wanted to make the most out of this burst of confidence to call some long time no see family members ( cousins, aunties etc). I .felt like walking instead of taking the bus, really felt like connecting with everyone and make sure everyone sees me smiling and shining

I read on forums that this boost last 7 days and I feel like it's true, however it's not as bad as I was before when I was PMOing, I read that some people reFAP on purpose just to go through that super short period of time.

Anyway that's not my objective I'm definitely done with porn, but I need to have sex with my fiance that I will be seeing in a month and I truly hope this won't affect my reboot as I'm now obsessed with that. I spend so much time reading your stories guys and that really helps.

I'm also thinking of telling my fiancee but I'm too ashamed, If I do tell her I'll ask her fo Arno sex for some time in order to stick to the hard mode program. But I'm so scared of telling her that the man that she said YES to, was in fact a porn addict ((

Just so u know about me, I had 12 years of daily porn. So pathetic I ruined my twenties by feeling like such a worthless person