I am no longer a slave

Hi. My name is Joseph. I'm 17. I've been addicted to porn and masturbation ever since I was 6-7. It got worse when I was bullied in school and didn't have the best relationship with my parents. Not because they were abusive or anything, no they are wonderful parents but because by the time I was 9-10 I just did not like them(which is stupid, but that has changed) I started using 3 times a day by the time I was in 6th grade. Everyday, for a while. I got in trouble in school for searching up porn and I didn't do anything for 6 months. When I got my stuff back I went right back to PMO. I kept doing that. To summarize, I used girls for nudes and my kinks and fetishes increased and became worse. Sophomore year I discovered NOFAP, and began to stop. I relapsed many times but eventually after like 7 months, I made it 78 days I think. After that relationship I was in during the 78 days, I got myself into another relationship. That relationship the girl keep being persistent for me to masturbate over the phone and have esex. And I did so because for some reason I can't say no apparently (I can, I tried to say no but I wanted her to be happy and I regret it so much) Ever since then, when I tried to get back on track with her she would bring me down again. I ended that, but after, I still found it hard to get back on track. Going on binges, etc. Now I'm free. I'm free from PMO and I realize that there is nothing in it. Absolutely nothing in it. And I'm happy that I'm free from PMO and the brainwashing. I am not focusing on making it to one week or two or three but to never do it again. I'll be coming back everyday. So yeah, that's me

 

It has now been 3 days so far but I don´t wanna count the days. It would be better to focus on "this is my life now" you know?