I can't control myself, How can I stop?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Driew Reknaw, Nov 17, 2019.

  1. Driew Reknaw

    Driew Reknaw Fapstronaut

    I've been masturbating since I was 12 (Or 11). But now I can stop.

    I'm 18 now, Univesity is coming soon and I can't find peace in myself.

    I've tried, man. Tried to find what triggers it, thinking about my future, family, about how it damages my brain and makes me weaker to these urges, how primal this is and how it destroys who I am. But I still do it.

    I always say in my mind: "This will feel good", "I will stop now, I got this!", "This will be the last time", "I need to remember that this distracts me from what matters most", "Losers masturbate, I must stop" I think back to the litte kid I was and how much harm I'm doing to him/myself, The dream that kid has. I continue doing it.

    I change my Etc/Drivers file to block pornsites, but I go into this (I know it sounds really stupid) trance and I can't control myself! I don't know what should I do.

    When I talk to girls and they like me back I just go back to my home and masturbate thinking about them.

    One day a girl was hitting on me, preseting her tits and touching me, but I couldn't get it up. So young and I couldn't get it up! I feel unsuitable.

    I say that I will change that habit for another, changing masturbation for exercise.

    Works for a day or eight and I fall again.

    I've been watching things that I wouldn't do in real life, i've see that it is a common occurrence in porn addicts.

    I'm new here, I know I have a problem and I don't want to continue doing this.

    I fall most of the times for drawings. Perfect bodies, all that.
    I fall because I don't feel good about myself, I fall because I feel sad, but every time I recognize it I ignore it, because I'm "In the moment".

    Any solutions?
    Last edited: Nov 19, 2019
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  2. Deadmemories

    Deadmemories Fapstronaut

    1. get a roommate - youll be less tempted to jack off with someone else around
    2. join social events at your university, the more active you are the less likely you are to relapse
    3. read books that improve your self esteem, some books I suggest are "how to win friends and influence people", "the subtle art of not giving a f*ck"
    4. think it through! if you find the urges uncontrollable think about what is actually going on. In most cases you find someone elses pleasure exciting and that's it.
    5. eat healty. healthy diet is important for rebooting your brain.
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