I'v been masturbating since I was 13 (currently 16 close to 17), and I want to get this addiction under control. About 2 years ago I stopped for two weeks, relapsed, and never tried again. Recently, I had decided to stop for religious reasons, and now for the other benefits that I have learned on this site. So I decided to stop fapping, and today, day 7, I relapsed. I feel like absolute shit. I hate what I did and I'm very frustrated. I was doing ok, and actually didn't succumb to it by intense urges down below, but rather just simply wanting to feel release. I reasoned to myself that relapsing and feeling like shit would help me for my second run. I didn't commit myself to my first try. So I PMO'D to a youtube video and here I am. Now, I am committing fully to this reboot. I haven't watched hardcore porn for awhile, but I still masturbate to things I shouldn't and feel addicted and I hate it. I'm done. I PLEDGE TO NOT MASTURBATE FOR 90 DAYS. And afterwards, I will learn to control myself and not let this addiction hurt me. I learned a lot this first run. Stay active, take cold showers, don't force temptations on yourself,and remember how shitty I feel right now. I commit, and I will do it! This is my promise to you guys, and I hate to go against my word. Please Lord, help me.
