I confessed to this cam girl from okcupid that I don't PMO!

I'm posting this here because it is the first enormous sign since joining this forum that I am "rebooting". No I didn't go to a cam site. No NSFW content below.

BREAKTHROUGH - Confession of no PMO to a cam girl

Interesting title right?

Anyway, I messaged this girl from okcupid that posted her phone number there, her profile said she needed a favor. Based on the profile I already knew that this was not a regular girl, no girl posts their phone number. Temptation was high so I said fck it, I texted her and was like "you are playing with fire for posting your phone there". We continued to chat and establish a little tiny bit of rapport and I flirted with her.

Eventually she explained to me how the favor works, basically I had to go to a cam site and put my CC info and then I could do whatever I wanted to her. I was like -_- "lol, I don't feel like you would keep your end of the bargain, I need you to take a photo with the nickname of my okcupid profile, with todays date." She took a while and eventually DID!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!!!! Anyway. I was really gonna for it. She gave me her address and everything....BUT behold:

At first I was like "ugh really, mr. purity. You aren't gonna go get laid she's fucken hot!!!!!? Who gives a fuck about nofap, this is all starting to get old anyway. Go get laid." "GO GET LAID".

Then the other part of me was like "No man. this is all stupid, it isn't even safe. She might also have something venereal. AND if that's not the case this contributes to the nasty industry that you don't watch. this isn't even about the forum. IT IS THE COMMITMENT ON YOURSELF. THE POSITIVE BENEFITS OF NOT BEING INVOLVED IN THIS SHIT. THE LIFE CHANGE. What's at STAKE."

So then...
I told her I wasn't gonna put my CC information, wished her the best in life TOLD HER that I didn't watch porn/cam sites or strip clubs and if she wanted to ever genuinely chill she's got my number. To be careful and that she was hot enough to be a REAL model, not some bullshit cam model.

So, I am proud of my decision. It also felt amazing saying to her that I didn't watch porn. And the self confidence to stick to my decision and continue to get involved in this crap.

Edit: Around the same time this happened, I got a text from my sister in my home country saying that my mom is real sick again. It made me feel shitty not having the capacity to send her to the best hospital. But it also crossed the Is and Ts of why I stopped. I have to help my mom much more then I am. And going back to my comfort zone of pmo/hookers/cam sites is never going to make that happen.

 

Thanks man. Didn't think of the illegal part...come to think of it that ok cupid profile might be banned in a couple of days. I've always attracted the right kind of women..each one has had qualities I want in a wife. Just don't want a wife yet.

 

Well it was a revelation that I stopped myself before things got out of hand. Something which I had no control of before. No nude pics were exchanged or asked for as well. And I didn't even to go the cam site where she wanted me to go. So I get what you are saying and obviously not going to seek this again, but it wasn't even triggering.