Hi guys, in the last relapse which was after about month I did something that i did not do it long time ago, I red on the internet about new to masturbate and I found that they recommend to use a anal toy even if you're straight ,which encouraged me to do (although I was doing thin but not in every time and I didn't do this thing about 1 year ago) but I did it,and used a toothbrush and I hurt myself accidentally in the first outer part , but then I inserted it till I felt it can't be inserted more and caused some pain. My question is Is it really the straight man can do things like that because I really have internet about male but I have strong thoughts about I'll be guy because of that and that's why I stopped doing this? I inserted it so deep and I tried to insert it more but I couldn't stand the pain but I did not stop the trying of inserting more ,so can it cause me cancer if I hurt myself from inside ? Can doing this cause cancer of the rectum or colon? If I enjoyed some part of doing this , this can't cause me to be a gay?