Hi! My bad story started when I was 15. I found some chat pages where I spent time. It's hard to write these words, I do not know how I start. Then I found better chats, better stories, messegner, skype, c2c, web pages, better webpages, harder and harder staff. Anyway my life has became that point, I masturbate one or two times per day watching porn on internet. Or use skype and try have "fun" with people. But is that fun or not? My feelings usually after that is really bad. Why again? I again use my time to this, even I have thought that I do not want this time. I have deleted my skype account more than twice. But found that again. I have decided many times that one time more, then I will stop. This addiction of dopamine is going too far now. I really want to stop this. I feel like I'm am slave of porn. This is waste of time. I just try to looking for happiness and some contrast to stressed work life. Kind of like give some present for me and try to relax. I found nofab and I read some of these texts and I felt like I would like to try same thing. Is that really possible to stop this behaving? Can I be more happy and free. I'm am quite sporty young man. I like to be gym three - four time per week. But so many times after that I found myself to watching porn. Where is that power to stop that behaving? My social life really suffer. After addiction period it's hard to watch people eyes. It's feel bad. I'm happy man usually and lot of friend. But this behaving make this real life harder. I'm too much in virtual life. And normal life became more problematic. I want my real life getting easier and I hope that I will get power to start new chapter of my life. I really need your help guys, I will start my one month now. First I will deleted all of my skype "friends". Alone this is impossible but maybe together success. Marc
Welcome, Marc. Thanks for sharing your story. It's always hard to find the right words at first. This is a great place to find support in your journey from people who understand what you're feeling. I wish you all the best in the future. You can do it! It'll be a tough journey, but it is worth the effort.
Hi Marc, I know your struggle buddy. You're not alone. I found it hard to go cold turkey, so for the first week or so I just tried masturbating without using porn. I used my "spank bank" so to speak. Lol. After a week of that, then I took the next step to no masturbation. I found it easier to ween myself off of porn that way instead of just quitting cold turkey. Maybe that's something you could try if you're struggling.
Great suggestion, JJohnson. I've heard a similar concept comparing taking an elevator to taking the stairs. Both get you to the level you want to be at, but if the elevator is too big a move for you at first, taking a single step on the stairs is still moving you in the right direction.
Thank you guys very much for support! It was so nice to read your comments. It has been quite difficult but so far so good. The spank bank thing is familiar way for me too before. I have tried that before too. Life has been busy these days so not that much time to think about fabbing. Anyway, Thank you support and that it helps a lot. I felt like someone understand me and know about my struggles. Marc
Hi people! 10 days. Oh that's hard! I was so close to watch something but I open this page. Without that forum there is no doubt where I could be now. I wonder that could be hard task and really it is. It's so easier when you have things to do. Meet friends, enjoy sport, hiking etc. But when u came home and nothing to do. Oh man it's getting so hard. Now I just take my staff and go gym. Hopefully my mind is easier then handle it!! Marc
Hi dudes! I just must to share this feeling! I feel so proud myself!! I was at gym and after that getting so freaking horny. My cock was harder than ever and my mind so weak. Then I just use couple of times that emergency panic apps and tried to get over it. My flesh want to masturbate so freaking bad but I manage it to don't do that. Even now my cock jumping up and down on my pants, but I do not touch! That feeling now is so great!! I'm winner and so proud myself. It is really about fighting and I will fight! Thank your stories and support here! Cheers! Stay strong! Marc
