Hi everybody, I'm a 24 years guy, who is trying to get rid of a deep addiction with porn. I started when I was like 14 and since then I never have a long "clean" period. I think my relation with porn begun directly into strange cathegories of porn, but I'm not sure since I do not remember exactly the beginning. I think it was a method my brain discovered to relief from all the pain I got in hearing my parents fight and have discussion almost on a daily basis. The fact that has led me to try to quit this addiction is that I found myself profoundly objectify girls. Everytime I see an attractive girl, I start thinking about having sex with her. This thing, that could appear normal to most, I think is the result of a high consumption of porn. The fact is that even when talking with girls, sometimes this thoughts pop in my mind, and I start feeling ankward because I don't really want this type of relation with a girl. I want to find a deep relation, I want to connect deeply with a girl, not only to fuck and stop. The problem is that I fear this addiction is so deep that I will be able only to objectify women for the rest of my life. I really want to find a relationship, but every time I try to establish a connection, this dark side of my past comes to haunt me, and I feel freezed. I'm now a week clean of porn, but it's hard. I will try my best to fight this addiction. If anyone is experiencing or has experienced the same and could give me some different perspective is welcomed! Have a nice day! don't give up!
