I go to SAA also (Zoom meetings right now). Started going through the steps with a sponsor in April and it’s been a huge help. Over four months clean and feeling stronger and stronger after two years of constant short streaks. I think an important thing for me was realizing I can’t do it alone and I will have to stay in top of this daily perhaps the rest of my life. Which is fine with me because I never want to go back to the way I was! One of my goals now is to help others as able. I think that should be the goal of each recovering addict.