I NEED a better life

Porn and masturbation has literally fucked my brain to the point where i barely enjoy life and settling for the boring routine of staying alive.

I remember back in the third grade where I would actually enjoy going to school to learn new things, hang out with my friends, talking to girls and playing with each other without a shit being given of whether she likes me or thinking am i good enough to talk to her.

Life used to be simple back then and no kid would even know what porn means

Little by little, till the point of puberty, we knew how to masturbate, what semen is and how watching porn makes us mentally High on dopamine

Over the years, we start to binge on porn everyday, being addicted to it and we don't even realize that we became dependant on the daily fix of porn and wouldn't function without it. It became second nature for us, just like breathing.

My last streak of 51 days was horrible. Filled with thoughts of women and accidentally looking at pictures every where and what made it worse is i didn't have anything to make myself busy since I've graduated high school and can't college won't start until September.

This time I promise I will make my reboot much better starting of with deleting Instagram (MAJOR triggers), start going to the gym and picking up some hobbies which i used to do like baking and swimming.

Thank you for reading and stay strong