I Need Help

You're feeling alone and vulnerable, and struggling.

You're not alone!

Well done for making another start. I know that it's difficult, especially at your young age. Good luck, and keep posting whenever you feel stuck.

 

Stay positive, keep looking forward, try for instance to learn some skill/foreign language, that will be helpful to you once the shutdown will be over. Or try some workout/yoga, to keep the energy up.

 

Are you still at school?

You can use the opportunity to catch up on studies, or to practice something creative that you've always wanted to do. What hobbies (other than PMO ) do you have?

 

Doing something physical will help you feel better. Are you able to go outside and get some fresh air?

 

Try and get into a solid routine. Wake up and go to bed at the same time everyday. Get out of bed, do some kind of excercise (pushups or something), eat breakfast and shower at the same time everyday. Think of this as an oppurtunity to learn new things. You could learn some random shit like juggling, solving rubiks cubes, oragami, a new language, coding.

 

This!

 

You have no right to think like that..
no matter where you are, or what you are going through, there is still time to win...
train your mind, train your body, train your spirit.... because you haven't seen the real beast yet...
only you can fight that beast..
you are not dead yet!! stand up!
get ready... I will pray for you.

 

That's the spirit! Well done.

Juggling is a great idea, because it exercises not only your body but also your brain. I read once about the benefits of juggling!

 

One important step outside of your misery and negative feelings of sadness, depression and hopelessness is to find purposes and goals in life and then strive to achieve them. Your life will feel much more meaningful, positive, joyful and vibrant when you start taking some action towards them and no matter how small the steps are at first (or later on), you will at least be on your way to something bigger and greater.
You do so by finding something you're good at and like doing, then you take action (one step at a time) towards it in one way or another.
Through continuous learning and development of the needed skillsets, you will be on your way to reach many of your goals and purpose and will enjoy the journey automatically along the way. Continuous action and perseverance towards it is what's going to make you feeling content, happy and satisfied in the long run, guaranteed!