I really need some support. I feel like I'm slipping...

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Squeaky Soul, Oct 20, 2015.

  1. Squeaky Soul

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    First off, I don't want people to overlook my cry for help, just because I am 5+ months clean.

    Secondly, I really am thankful for you taking the time to peak into this thread!

    Well, I've been abstaining quiet successfully using NoFap since February 2014. I've always had some pretty long streaks. One reaching to nearly three hundred days, and a couple of one hundred long streaks.

    So, I've been abstaining long enough to know when I start slipping. To know when I'm coming close to a relapse.

    To make a long story short, I feel like every day for a few days, I've come closer to relapse.

    I just need your support! I'm very vulnerable right now, and I don't want to lose these long 5 months that I worked so hard for. If I relapse, everything will be lost. Please help me.

    If you need support, please message me. I'm sure that'll perk me up!

    ~Squeaky Soul
     
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  2. ItsNotWorthIt

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    physical activity is what you need
    Sprint as fast as you can till you fall down on the ground and cant get up

    when you feel the relapse coming closer again go sprint again
     
  3. IGY

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    Hi Squeaky Soul. Yes, you are experienced and a proven winner!. Nevertheless, we can fall into the trap of seeing past patterns as a self-fulfilling prophecy. You are in the process of creating a new pattern. You have the opportunity now to continue this journey of recovery with no further resets. That is the ultimate goal and one you will undoubtedly achieve.
     
  4. JoeinMD

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    You know very well that when the addict within you no longer succeeds to getting to you with the old temptations, he comes out in new and unusual ways - like stress or agitation or depressing feelings or delusional thinking even (all fodder for addiction) - but in the end it all has the same purpose - to get you to fall into PMO and nothing else.

    Also, when one had succeeded for a long time against addiction, one starts to forget even what being in the muck and mire of shitty addiction feels like. One starts to glamorize the experience of PMO even and one starts to fantasize, even on sexual encounters that are quite contrary to reality or one's character even. Again, it's the addict trying to slip you up for the sole purpose of getting you to fall into the PMO shit hole once again.

    You need to audibly call out your inner addict and accuse him of trying to slip you up - tell him you know what he's up to and that you don't want any of his f#cked-up suggestions.

    Please know too from us guys who are back in the pit (I recently fell after 55 days and am finding it hard to get back) that you are not missing anything in this PMO pit - it's as bad as ever, it's lies are as real as even, and the crushing shitty feeling of indulging here is yours for the taking if you want to give up on recovery.

    Furthermore, consider the real danger that will occur if you give up here. This Nofap recovery site has been one of your only success stories that brought you this far in a long time, hasn't it? Before pursuing recovery here, you didn't have too many effective tools that worked, did you? So, consider very strongly that if you flush this opportunity down the toilet, then picking up again and using this Nofap recovery site might not work as strongly for you again as it has this time around. And, if that becomes the case, what will you depend on next? Why should you ever recover?

    To recover fully, you're going to have to face what your going through now the next time around as well, so why throw it away just to face these same things again? Face them now, stay strong, and continue on your recovery path.

    Best wishes, dude!
     
  5. Phyzik

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    May I ask you how you can tell that you are about to relapse? Also, is there anything you're experiencing right now in your life that is triggering intense suffering emotions?
     
  6. NoBrainer

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    Hey Squeaky. Please tell us how you feel that you are close to relapsing so that we can give advice on specific ways to prevent it. Best wishes.
     
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  7. Squeaky Soul

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    I'll go on a run tonight. Thanks man!!
     
  8. Squeaky Soul

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    You're right! I can't see this as my approach towards relapse! Thanks for the words of wisdom!!
     
  9. Squeaky Soul

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    Thanks for calling to attention the fact that relapse is very bad act. Something that's hard to break out of. Remembering those bad days is hard when you've gone on without it for so long. This leads to the defeat of many.
     
  10. Squeaky Soul

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    Mainly just boredom. I've done a lot of exciting things in September and early October...
    Zip lining, fishing (lots of fishing!!!), rock climbing, paintballing, etc. These past few weeks have been nothing but boring. Sitting around all day, doing homework, hardly having any interactions with people.
     
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  11. Squeaky Soul

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    All that loneliness and boredom make me crave excitement. An excitement I can find in either pornography, or healthy outdoor activities like the ones I described.
     
  12. IGY

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    I suppose that is a downside of being home schooled. Whatever the case, boredom is not to be underestimated. Nor is it unusual for thoughts about sex to come to the mind of a guy in his teens. So, make sure you don't lounge around in bed. Stay with your family in the house whenever you can. Nip in the bud any beginnings of sexual thoughts and images. It will seem like hard work when you are feeling bored and lethargic. But as a fit guy, you know that no pain, means no gain! :rolleyes:
     
  13. Squeaky Soul

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    Thanks buckaroo!
     
  14. Squeaky Soul

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    Thanks to all that has been here to support me! I can't tell you how much it means to me!

    This streak has been my most successful streak!

    Another reason to add, would be that I've been able to tell myself, "Enough is enough" when I enter any hostile territory - TEMPTATION!

    I've been able to stop myself from dwelling on anything tempting, even resisting relapse when a girl I used to take a class with sent me nudes through Facebook... And countless of tempting pictures have been sent to me over Snapchat.

    I've definitely been strengthened over the passed year since I've been apart of NoFap.

    ~SS
     

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