I was thinking of cheating on my Fiancee!!!!

Dont cheat man. Your selfish pursuit of meaningless orgasm, will ruin your womans inner world and self worth completely if she knows about it. She gave birth to two children for you, lost some of her appearence maybe, shes taking care of your newborn, if you should break up, theres two kids growing up without father, broken home, some childhood trauma. Maybe new asshole stepfather, mentally unstable mother because of the trauma. And you think of cheating her, because of one time orgasm?
Go jerk off, watch that spoonful semen, and think, is that worth of losing all that you have and ruin everyones life in your family?
If watching porn, helps you to keep yourself from cheating, watch it. But be aware, it will ruin your life in the long run anyways. So keep fighting man.
Sorry if I came on too hard.

 

Hello my friend,
First of all thank you for sharing your story. I am also again at day 0. Like you I have a partner and 2 kids . I think that It is sometimes better to watch porn and masturbate than to go further and cheat your partner. I know what I am talking about. I think that you are on the right path because you really care about what you are doing. Many people really don’t care about cheating their partner or to watch porn. I really want to encourage you to keep fighting. You do a great job. Don’t be so hard to yourself. We have one of the strongest addictions. So relapse is part of the process. I like this quote: I can accept failure because everyone fails sometimes. But I cannot accept trying it not again. Please keep fighting. I will do it too. I wish you the best.