I watched porn pictures and now I feel like shit.

I was alone at 6:30 with my computer in CNM, in separated room and I put my computer the other way so people can not see it, then I opened the pictures that I have to run away from, so I could not handle my self, moreover I did not try to stop my self from finding the best websites for having pictures, I fantasized a lot and edge but I did not masturbate, however, it is worst than that, because the dopamines in my brain all taking the space and making brain fogg, I am so dumb so dumb, why checking out websites while being alone, I do not do false commitment but I am not serious about pornography and I do not have a good reason why I am watching this thing but I know it is some how affecting my brain, I want to learn 3 pages about porn everyday that is what I need to do to get out this addiction, wish me luck and I love you all.