This is my second time moving away from home, and it's even lonlier than I remember it. What if my mom is dead? I have no reason to believe she is, but I just can't put off the thought, and it's freaking me out. My instinct is to self soothe with pmo, but that's just going to make me even more anxious and scared, and I know it. I just don't know what to do. What's going on? How can I get rid of these terrifying thoughts?