I'm new here, and I have a question

polskichlopak2137

New Fapstronaut
I apologize in advance for my English, I can't speak it enough to write such a long text so I use a translator

Hi, I'm new here but I heard about nofap about 1,5 years ago (not counting nnn). I took up the challenge at least 3 times - the first time I lasted about 1.5 months (but only without masturbation), then I had a break of several months, recently I took up the challenge again, this time without pmo, I failed, after I lost, the next days I spent watching porn for several hours a day, I decided to take up the challenge again, this time more difficult:
*zero social media, except for yt and messenger - there were a few times that I downloaded Facebook, instagram or snapchat for a while (5 minutes max) then deleted them, not to look at pictures of women just to check notifications, etc.
*zero playing games
*restriction on watching movies and TV series except for the 3 series I'm currently watching (episodes come out every week so I only watch them on the weekend) - since I started not counting those series, I've watched two movies (gladiator and jaws)
*zero alcohol and marijuana - with alcohol I have never had a problem, since the beginning of the challenge I drank one beer that I got from a friend, from marijuana I used to be addicted but as of today I have not smoked for 67 days
*learning programming - sometimes due to fatigue at work I let it go a bit, but mostly I stick to it
*zero porn, masturbation and staring at women - so far I manage without masturbation, staring at women I limited during the challenge and I think I already stare at them much less, in fact almost not at all, as for porn I will describe below
*gym 4 days a week + cardio 2 times a week (only Sunday free) - I've been going to the gym for a while but now I've added this cardio
*daily meditation
*cold showers
*reading books in my free time

Back to porn, I had two stumbles, the first yesterday, on the internet I saw an ad for some game with a hentai theme, I entered it but when the page loaded and there was softcore (no visible genitals or boobs) I immediately turned it off, the second today, I wondered if ai can generate nsfw pictures, I checked and it turned out that it can, first I went to the first website and selected the sample description, it displayed a blurry hentai softcore picture (pictures of women in lingerie) I did it 3 times and turned off the website, then I went to another website, a free one, I chose a sample description and it displayed a woman on the beach in a swimsuit, then I typed 'naked girl' myself, I waited for the photo to generate looking at the top of the screen so I wouldn't see anything by accident, after the photo was displayed I couldn't even see if the woman was wearing a bra or not, so I looked at her face and then out of the corner of my eye for a split second I saw boobs, then I immediately turned off that website and didn't search for this type of thing again, does this count as a relapse? Will it delay my benefits?

I would also add that I don't think about sex and I don't fantasize. Every time erotic thoughts come to me I start thinking about something else and after 2-3 seconds I get over it, in addition I haven't had an erotic dream yet, which is strange because they used to happen to me quite often, even during wet dreams I used to dream about normal things. And as for the wet dreams I had them 5 times of which 3 in one night, it bothered me a bit so if someone would comment on this I would appreciate it.
 
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