I'm 22, never been in a relationship, tried once recently but got rejected. I won't meet new people until August, and I think my chances of getting a relationship are slim, but I just wanted to put it out there: I want my first time to be without a condom, I'll be fine with using it afterwards, but for the first time I want skin to skin contact. I realize this is extremely risky (I don't want kids, people are dishonest), but I've found myself to be overly particular as to what I want despite my lack of experience. In the unlikely event I actually find a woman who I want who wants me back, I know I'd push sex back as long as I could focussing on the emotional side first, but I don't think I could keep it up long term. But the future is unwritten and unpredictable.