Journal/Observations

I'm not exactly sure where or if possible I can just use one journal without having to create a new thread. If anyone could let me know that would be great.

I've definitely hit what I would call a flatline. I definitely feel more present but I feel that I landed here with a thud because I was experiencing a lot of dopamine from instagram and dating apps which I think are used as P substitutes. Pulling the plug on anything sexually stimulating via a screen has left me at a hard flatline. Conversely, I have flatlined but recognize that I am actually adjusting to a healthier mindset. Things are calmer even if they're boring. I feel like because my brain is not getting flooded with dopamine from visual stimuli and edging that my nervous system is becoming more acute. Who knew...NOFAP ALLOWS YOUR BRAIN TO HEAL WHICH IN TURN MAKES YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM MORE ACUTE. As Allen Watts says, "you cannot be more attuned to pleasure without being more attuned to pain." That said, I have noticed intense mood swings throughout the day. At one point I'll be confident and optimistic and then the next I'll be dreary, tired, and emotional. But I think this is good overall because at least emotions are coming out. By my nervous system adjusting and brain, I feel that I am healing my self. I'm not numbed from dopamine and visual stimuli.
Another observation: When I am in these flatlines I get attention from women and others in general. What do I get attention for? People recognize that I am not in my head, thinking, like the other 99% (even if they are in their mind they can still feel my presence). This creates a subtle subconscious interest or intrigue.
I've realized that from presence you have the ability to review your self-image and programing of your mind, all those negative subconscious thoughts of being unworthy, unattractive, etc are critiqued by the conscious mind and are thrown out because they don't serve me. What's more amazing from having this presence is that I can operate from my natural state of what it is to be a man and not from these negative programming of my old self image. In other words, when I am present, I can make keen and calm eye contact with women I find attractive whereas in the past I would have operated from myself image of shame and unworthiness and looked down or not as calmly, or needily. Furthermore, I would have tried to mimic confidence which is always intuited as insincere and therefore needy. Women can feel the false confidence, and the mimicry And women sense this difference. It subtle but completely different. One comes from a natural state of being male while the other comes from fabricated negative thought patterns and held in place by my addiction to screen stimuli. This is why men report superpowers like better response from women or them sitting next to them on the bus etc. It's because they have worked on the inner game and it intrinsically reflects in an outward way. Simply, you look different and act different, because you are different. Your Brain is different and your nervous system is different. And this can only occur in the flatline, when your brain is not drowning in dopamine. The results from a more scientific perspective or social perspective is that this flatline gives you space, a little detachment from your incessant thoughts, and allows you to become more socially attuned to social cues. You become able to recognize social cues better and navigate them towards the direction of genuine social interactions. The dopamine saturated mind cannot recognize these social cues as easily because the nervous system has been desensitized. Furthermore, you, your soul, or whatever you are beyond your mind recognizes this and finds itself in a state of high level anxiety. This is why fappers often report high social anxiety at first and then claim that their social anxiety has diminished. If you are able to see this happen in a conscious way within yourself you can direct your personality with charisma and allow it to expand. In other words, you can become magnetic or charismatic. In turn, this builds character having this self discipline in place and changes your Frame/perspective when socializing. You no longer try to qualify yourself from women. You operate from a calm sense of presence and values and naturally get women to qualify themselves to you.
Further, from a space of social dynamics, because of the discipline you've exercised with nofap, you have a more sensitive nervous system which allows you to pick up on social cues, act more masculine and natural and be a more desirable person.
In short, if I win the inner game I can direct my energy outwardly with freedom however I want and win the outer game. Even shorter- win the inner game and you will win the outer game.
Field studies: at the grocery store women would stare at me. They would feel my grounded energy. An older women in her 40's walked by made I contact and I smiled with my eyes and held it. She was so taken back she followed me around the store for a little. These are subtle social cues that become more obvious with a sensitized nervous system. It has come to the point where I can do it on command and open women comfortably with a compliment or a simply hi. Women at the gym run next to me on the treadmill. They notice your energy more and want more of it. I'm going to stop here. This was written fast and loosely but I would love to hear what you guys think about these realizations.