Well, its been a while, I have been doing really well, but due to covid I picked up on Pmo again. long story short I just had a one night stand, although im not sure if it still counts as one if we didnt have penetrative sex. I didnt get hard. Like, at the end I even kind of did, but then i put the condom on and poof, erection gone again. It was so incredibly frustrating, a beautiful women right in front of me and I just couldnt do it. since yesterday I had masturbated for hours using porn, Im pretty sure that just fucked me (unlike me and my ons haha...), although it was possibly just my head telling me that? I dont know what to say, other than: porn sucks so bad, I cant believe how incredibly hard it sucks. This text is kind of a mess and I apologize, to keep it simple ill stay away from porn (again), I dont want to experience this again, oh my god was that humiliating, frustrating etc.
First, beating yourself up won't help. I'm guessing you had PIED, which is porn-induced erectile dysfunction. What you went through is one of the side effects of porn addiction. In order to beat this addiction, I would suggest going a few months without porn or masturbating. You need to give your body a rest and with time, your ED should ease and eventually go ahead. I'm really sorry you had that embarrassing situation happen. First thing you can do is delete all porn from all your devices then go into your browser and delete all bookmarks related to porn. That will help greatly. You may wish to install porn blockers on all devices. I would recommend changing your search engine to Swisscows, a family friendly search engine. It will not give you any results for any searches related to porn at all. You can find this search engine at http://www.swisscows.com. Keep coming here and update us on your progress. This website offers support groups and an opportunity to get an accountability partner. Good luck. I've been at it over 80 days and I feel great. I even got a morning wood a couple of times in the past week. I haven't had those in ages.
Dude this is 100% why you weren’t able to keep it up. You pmo for hours? You depleted yourself. Isn’t a real woman a million times better than a screen?
