Learn from me

Hello all. Just wanna share something with you guys. I want everyone who reads this to really listen. Dont let this shit ruin your life like it has destroyed mine. I'm telling you all, it is not worth it. There are way more important things in life. Way more important people. I thought I had it all, a nice job, a beautiful girlfriend who I love with all my heart. But I allowed this to get the best of me. I had everything in my hand and instead of cherishing it all, I closed my hand and crushed it all into dust. Now I am alone. Lonely. Depressed, Deprived of sleep ,Not eating. I am at an all time low right now. I dont wish this on anybody. And I hate to say this, I've even contemplated suicide. While you can get out, get out before its too late. My girlfriend I really take my hat off to her. This is something that is hard for anybody to take. Like damn my boyfriend is really watching porn and doing all this shit. And instead of leaving me she tried to help me. She gave me the benefit of the doubt like yeah this is an addiction you gotta fight it. And while I did and been for awhile I always found myself doing some bullshit. Things that weren't worth doing. Now shes given up on me. And right now I swear on my life I'm over this. But guess what? It's too late. Too late to show her that I've changed because I didnt show it the first time. I would do anything to have another chance with her and I laugh because all I had to do was stop. Stop betraying someone, the one person who knew of this problem and tried to help me. Cant say her name on here since we are anonymous. But I wanna refer to her as "Hanna". Guys, all of our stories are different. But I wanna say if you have a Hanna in ur life, hold on to her. Hold on tight and never let go. Dont let this thing ruin what u have. Trust me you will live in regret for the rest of your life. I encourage u guys to seek help. Professional help, help from friends, help from family, anybody u trust Because it will destroy you. You will lose everything and find urself alone. JUST LIKE ME! When u have a hanna who put so much effort into u to help u be better, and show u love that u may never receive from another person TAKE CARE OF HER, keep her around. Listen to her. Dont throw her away for some bullshit. It's not worth it. Now there isnt a happy ending to this story for me, but I promise u there will be a happy story for you. And to Hanna if you ever read this, I love u and I am truly sorry for betraying your trust. If anybody wishes to talk, or ask for advice feel free to inbox ne. God bless you all