Living in the Present

I'm starting up again, and I've made it two days so far from restarting. I already feel like I've gained a little bit of wisdom from this short period of time. I realized yesterday night that pretty much all relapse, if not then all relapse, is a result of not living in the present moment. Think about it. If you had your memory of PMO taken away from you, would you even think of going onto a website and relapsing? Would you even know that P and P subs were available? You wouldn't because it is not in your head at all because you couldn't go back to the past mentally for that particular subject. I had the common urge that comes on day 1 or day 2 and its the "c'mon you haven't gotten very far. It wouldn't hurt to just have another go at this website or that website. You can start again later." Sound familiar to you? This thought process is a perfect example of letting your mind live in the past. When you think like this, you're not 100% in the present PMO free moment that you're in RIGHT NOW. When I had these thoughts yesterday, I realized this. I told myself that I'm not living in the present. It was the old me. It was the past, and as such it needs to lay to rest in the past. I chose to live in the moment and take in my environment, what I'm thinking and feeling and whats going on around me. I made the choice to shift my attention to what is the "here and now". I feel like this realization is going to be another one of my weapons in my tool box to liberate myself. I hope this helps you if you're struggling. Stay strong. Let the old you rest in the past where it belongs. The time is now friends.