Losing my humanity

yes i know this feeling very well, you are not alone.
In my opinion there are some shady porn industries which exploit women.
Do we know for sure, woman gave their permission for the sexual violence on camera? What if she is used and being degraded without her permission? What, if these kind of things were not included in the agreement? Can you check it? Do woman have the chance to accuse these things? I Dont think so.

Can we be sure, the woman on camera are no victims of human trafficking and are not able to escape of their own?

you cant be sure if you watch porn. So if you watch porn you facilitate these kind of things. In my opinion it is inevitable that you have any kind of guilty conscience. Yes, we are monster watching porn. SO be responsible for you behaviour in the past. You did a mistake. Just dont do it NEVER EVER again.

 

You feel no longer human because porn is dehumanizing, it debases women treating them as mere fuck dolls and it debases men treating them as non-sensible egocentric brutes. Since you get turned on by that role play, you end up identifying with these “inhuman” beings, but when you understand that your humanity encompasses much more than your urges, you won’t be as turned on by that kind of content, and you won’t feel as bad.

Just reflex on that kind of things before the fap, so you “become” human, not after.

 

I know of the feeling like you can't escape, you will be forever stuck in a perverted warped reality until you die. Feeling as if you can't redeem yourself, maybe you can't be fixed. It took me a while to get myself out of that deep horrible existence going from one hit to the next without any care for tomorrow.
For me It started around 12-13 so you will be able to quit too, remember there was a time in which you weren't that bad.
Also Ive come to the idea that if you completely abstain from video games, PMO, and many dopamine activities you will get bored of your environment and change will come since your DNA has designed you to eventually get the balls to get out into the world and change your environment.

My honest advice to you is not to trust your beliefs at all (For a while), I only saw a change when I started to see things for what they actually were not how I wanted them to be.

 

Can you elaborate?

 

I had a multitude of bad thoughts and ideas due to the normalization of pornography. People in my school, friend group, and many other places had openly either had porn open and was watching it without any regrets as if it was normal to watch it at school or in public. Shit even reflecting on it those people as well would show videos of people getting killed or really fucked videos of babies being ran over by trains. If i had continued to think or behave like they would and just accepted those people in my life for a year or two longer I do not believe I would be this clear minded and close to my real goals.
This definitely does not apply for everyone but I used to know many degenerates in the past. You can not reason with these people, they are too far gone and you will not find what you are looking for in life with these types of people. Without a doubt in my mind these people kept me thinking in the wrong ways.

You must change what you see and believe before you try and change into a new person. You can never beat PMO addiction when you still believe PMO is healthy and normal activity.

 

Yes because porn is not a genuine representation of reality . It's dehumanising, degrading , and mostly disgusting.

 

I understand, I find those kind of people repulsive, they think dismembering or death images are funny, they’re so fucked up and I’m glad you drifted apart from them.

Now here’s what I thought you were referring to:

Porn is role-play and kink based, if you consume it you normalize those kinks and start to think that’s the norm for sex. Then if you doubt your beliefs, you’ll find out that porn is role-play and kink based, and if you’re interested in real sex I think you won’t get aroused at this role-play kink based content.
But does that make kinks wrong? I wouldn’t come out as fast to say “Yeah of course”, and I don’t mean kinks as in watching porn but as in real life sex.