Lost on my way

Yandere Scientist · Mar 8, 2016

I don't know where I am going anymore. I have not watched porn since almost 3 months. It's not difficult because I've never been that addicted to porn.
But now, I am lost for another decision to take. I don't know what I should do about masturbation. I don't know if I should continue to do it when I feel "the need to release" or if I should not. I don't know what decision I should take or what feel right for me.
In truth I don't see any problem to fap when you feel like you have the physiological need to. But should I fap or not . . . I don't know anymore.

I had to quit a group on nofap because I realised that I felt not guilty for relapsing and I was thinking that I didn't belong to this group. At some point I thought that scheduling the day you fap will be the best thing, but in truth, I don't even respect that thing of every 4 days. So I don't know what to do anymore. A part of me regret quitting it, but I could not stay with the choices I took after relapsing. But now, I'm not even sure anymore about that choice.
Heirs of the Sun, if you see this, know that I miss you, I feel alone. I really miss you and the time we conforted every each other . . . I regret my choice of leaving, even though I couldn't have stayed anymore at that time.

I'm tired, because if I do long streak again, I will have a beast following behind me, something that will remind me that if I'm not careful, I will fap. Added to that, the fact that I totally hate cold showers. But seeing that I don't respect my 4 days thing, seeing that I don't want to be oversexualised and it's not a life I want to lead . . . I don't know which decision to take anymore. At least, I prefer to fap than wet dream because when I fap, I don't think of sexual thing, but of the need to release.

I'm lost. I'm tired to think about it. I have quitted my group which have nice people, and now I feel guilty so I won't join them again, and now I feel lonely, I don't know what to do anymore . . .

Jackie Chan · Mar 13, 2016

Yandere Scientist said: ↑

I don't know where I am going anymore. I have not watched porn since almost 3 months. It's not difficult because I've never been that addicted to porn.
But now, I am lost for another decision to take. I don't know what I should do about masturbation. I don't know if I should continue to do it when I feel "the need to release" or if I should not. I don't know what decision I should take or what feel right for me.
In truth I don't see any problem to fap when you feel like you have the physiological need to. But should I fap or not . . . I don't know anymore.

I had to quit a group on NoFap because I realised that I felt not guilty for relapsing and I was thinking that I didn't belong to this group. At some point I thought that scheduling the day you fap will be the best thing, but in truth, I don't even respect that thing of every 4 days. So I don't know what to do anymore. A part of me regret quitting it, but I could not stay with the choices I took after relapsing. But now, I'm not even sure anymore about that choice.
Heirs of the Sun, if you see this, know that I miss you, I feel alone. I really miss you and the time we conforted every each other . . . I regret my choice of leaving, even though I couldn't have stayed anymore at that time.

I'm tired, because if I do long streak again, I will have a beast following behind me, something that will remind me that if I'm not careful, I will fap. Added to that, the fact that I totally hate cold showers. But seeing that I don't respect my 4 days thing, seeing that I don't want to be oversexualised and it's not a life I want to lead . . . I don't know which decision to take anymore. At least, I prefer to fap than wet dream because when I fap, I don't think of sexual thing, but of the need to release.

I'm lost. I'm tired to think about it. I have quitted my group which have nice people, and now I feel guilty so I won't join them again, and now I feel lonely, I don't know what to do anymore . . .
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Well even I quit the group as I relapsed and felt bad about wasting their time and support. Feel free to pm me @sp_qr.

Deleted Account · Mar 13, 2016

Addiction to fapping is a bad thing. But just as bad is artificially crated guilt after fapping. There is nothing essentially wrong with masturation, or even porn for that matter. It's addiction what is problem, it's addiction what ruins lives and messes up people's psychology. I always use the example of food. Food is natural thing, we need it to survive. But some people get addicted to it and slowly ate themselves to big health problems and death. It's not the food, it's too much of it. So if you wanna fap then fap. There is nothing wrong with natural physical or mental release. Masturbation is natural and people should not be ashamed of it.

As long as you can keep it in balance! You should judge that. Is it because you are triggered that you fap? Cos of things like anxiety or boredom? Or is it nothing but physical, natural and completely normal need? Can you freely choose to do it or not to do it? Do YOU have choice and are YOU are in full control? Would fapping effect your life in a negative way? Or would it effect it in positive way, by for example getting rid of guilt and unnecessary physical tension?

Maybe you have dealt with addiction and maybe you don't need to abstain anymore? Maybe now you just have to maintain the healthy mentality? I can not judge it for you tho. But those would be things to think about if ya wanna figure out should or should not you fap now.

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