I am 21. I don't have anymore energy to battle PMO addiction. I lost it. There's nothing I didn't read in favor of nofap. I watched all TED videos about how porn affects your brain. I watched videos on success stories and how one feels after abstaining and getting rid of this habit. For a moment I feel motivated and inspired but in the very next moment those 'scenes' start forming in my head and I get trapped again and relapse. I never interacted with any girls. I never ever had a girlfriend. But I was very good at academics. But lately, I am starting to loose interest in studies. I feel very lazy and getting thinner day by day. I just want an internet connection and a laptop/phone. I am getting less sleep as I can't sleep without fapping twice. Lately, I have been masturbating 5-6 times a day. I can't remember stuff. My thoughts are cloudy. I have no interest in my hobbies. I just like to lie on the bed and browsing the scenes and downloading, relapsing, deleting the downloaded content, promising myself will never do it again, again after a couple of hours, browsing, downloading and the cycle goes on. Even while writing this, I am getting an urge to fap. I am tired of promising myself. I lost my dignity. I am a failure. Fighting this habit since 4 years but still no success. I think I will soon be destroyed because of all this sins I am practicing.