MAIN PMO PROBLEM My whole life

The main problem since pmo is that I wanted to be interested in things but was always disconnected from everything.. Forget curing social anxiety, brain fog, excessive worries.. I want to have a surge of interest in going to a coffee shop and reading a book as well as doing school assignments.. All my other issues will take care of itself.. If lots of guys pmo, is it the fact that they have a compromising aspect of their life like maybe highly social(pmo affects their social aspect but sometimes is insignificant until a certain time of pmo like 10 years or something) or something else cuz when I look any given guy that appears social 9 out of 10 look like they are interested in things(big assumption l know but still) has anyone had this problem ever since they pmod where u gather ur materials, u start the assignment, and within the first 10 minutes u get cold sweats, and headtension type tiredness? I don't mean just once. I mean it's recurred for like years.. Another question. Does anyone have preexisting social anxiety like before porn?