Day 3 Today 11/1/2022 Today was really hard for me . It was even harder than the 1st day... To the point that i had an online class, i closed my cam during the online class cuz of the amount of discomfort and the negative emotions i was feeling, and wow I actually cried cuz it was so overwhelming and hard ... My addiction is a secret from everyone around me and my recovery is also a secret and I'm really happy and grateful that for the 1st time I'm on the right path and yah that's it... 5 hours left to my bedtime... wish me luck to keep fighting for the rest of the day
Day 4 11:30 pm Today 12/01/2022 I would say today wasn't that bad I guess I did fine and I'm really happy that I didn't think about it the much as I didn't think about PM or like the whole recovery thing, I was just doing my work, spending time with family and friends and for the first time since so long, I was productive today. My mood:
Day 5 13/01/2022 The 5th day was actually good and I'm happy that I'm starting to accept the fact that no more PM it's pretty hard though considering the fact I was addicted for a whole year. I had a happy family zoom and i was super awkward but I actually enjoyed seeing my parents and my family all together and yeah I would say I'm also more productive than before and the hours I used to waste in PM ... I spent it studying and with family. Mood:
Day 6: 14/01/2022 I can't believe that i was about to relapse today, it's all because of this stupid movie i watched i didn't know it was that dirty...Ughhhh I hate my life, i literally wasted 2 or 3 hours of my day doing nothing today was really disappointing...umm i guess i will just take a cold shower to stop the urge *In the bright side now i feel bad Mood:
