Hi Glad you are here. And very welcome to join us in our journey to a healthy, fulfilling life without any self harming habits. It's a safe place here. We all are in the same boat, so there is no single space for judgement here. Maybe it's a good idea to keep a journal. Sharing your struggles, thoughts and feelings may help you to understand the underlying issues. Keep coming back and get the most effort out of nofap! You don't need to do it alone! Let's go to work!