My difficulties of masturbation

Hello everyone, my name is KJ, and I would like to share my story about how I overcome masturbation. It all started in my high school years, when I was hitting puberty. Every time I go to bed, I always watch some fetish videos, and masturbate to it.
Until I was 18, I didn't masturbate as much as I used to, but I ended up watching porn a few times a month. I tried to stop, but I always keep relapsing. Until 2016, I've found the NoFap website that talks about the importance of abstinence, so I gave it a shot. I relapsed in March. I also masturbated to BDSM videos all the way until summer of 2017, I stopped mastubated. I've been abstaining from it for nearly two years, and I relapsed again.
I abstained again, and I relapsed twice in September and October. I abstained yet again for over four months, and I was doing a pretty good job until I became so anxious that I couldn't take it anymore...so I relapsed today just to get the urges out of my system, and I thought to myself, 'you know what? Enough is enough.'

So, I made a vow to myself to stick to the NoFap challenge in order to accomplish making some self-improvement and to better my life. If I can do it in 90 days, then I should be ready to do it for a year. 2 years the same thing. If I see any results in a matter of 3 years, I would definitely see the difference in who I am. So I decided to challenge myself to abstain from PMO to become the best version of myself. Wish me luck.