Even though my parents were not the most well-off growing up, we still had many things that I still take for granted. Seeing people describe how hopeless it can feel in other countries is something I can only try and sympathize with, I'm sure I can't even imagine how stacked the odds are against you. I'm guessing the one thing I will be able to relate with is porn and internet addiction. It's a topic that is essentially taboo when spoken about here; although its becoming a major issue by affecting countless men and women, there truly isn't any emphasis on education about it. I was first exposed when I was thirteen and didn't have any idea of what I was getting into. I'm still struggling with how it's affecting my life years later, and it has crept into influencing my relationships and self worth. It wasn't a route I would have taken if I had known the consequences. I think what things boil down to is this: as of this moment, you know things could be better. Whether or not you label yourself as a victim is irrelevant. I think what does matter is whether you choose strive to improve yourself right now, or settle with the circumstances that were given to you. Since you're on this forum and keeping up this thread, I hope you choose the former. Regardless, thank you for sharing your story and perspective. I really hope that if you continue to look at what you do have the ability to change, then you can find some solace in improving on your life. Even if things don't turn out all golden, at least you gave yourself the best odds when you were given nothing to begin with. Stay strong bro!