My Poem about the Destruction that Porn Addiction can cause

It's the most peculiar thing
Some may even say it's unnatural
One could even think it's not human
But it is what it is and it has remained constant...

I CANT FEEL LOVE!!!!

I've never felt what Love feels like
I know in my mind when someone says they love me what they mean
I can tell whether their affections are genuine
But I just can't feel it

It's as though a part of me is dead:
Like there has been a shut down of a crucial component of my being
And try as I might to start that engine
I am greeted only by numbness and unfeeling indifference

I look at others who are bathed in the warmth of Love -
Who are able to recognize it's tender caress and deep embrace
Who can sit in it and be comfortable in it and not be threatened by it
Who can experience it's healing power

But I sit on the outside looking in
And just like one is able to see clearly through a pane of glass but are unable to touch anything on the other side
I stand there recognizing what I see but coldly unable to feel it within

It's not as if others haven't tried or cared:
I've experienced many relationships in my life -
Both friendship and romance,
But nothing and nobody so far - despite themselves overflowing with Love
Has been able to make that part of me come to life
The part of me that has remained dead - for as long as I can remember