depression

If you are reading this the headline must have caught your attention. If the headline caught your attention, you must be in a real bad place. Fortunately there is some hope. Unfortunately it is going to take some time to undo the damage done. There is good news though, most people, even in the...

Now that I'm 16 I know that every day that passes by gets me closer to being 18. The big number! Finally an adult, I can move out, get my own place, pay my own bills, and the whatnot! right? I feel like I'm a complete disapointment to future me. Like how am I supposed to get my own place...

hey guys i am coming back to you after a long time being abstinent of this forum. this is a long text but i do it for myself and also for other people who are intersted to read it and to know more about my story and also for people who suffer themselves maybe it will help them. other people who...

Hello everyone, has anyone seen an improvement in their mental health after 90 days of nofap? Can you share? Are there some that took longer? What do you think is the average time to feel better? Which symptoms improved?

Hi all, I didn't want to make this post, or anything related to it, but I feel like ive tried everything, and this post will maybe shine light on a strategy I've yet to try. I don't want to make this a sob story, but I've been trying to get over my porn addiction for about 3-4 years. Up until...

I've been on this site throughout many phases of my life (from age 16 to 25 now) and looking back, while I have not made much progress thus far toward quitting pornography, I have made significant progress in other parts of my life thanks in part to this site. I first started writing here when...

I found out about porn for the first time when a friend showed it to me when I was 8 years old. I masturbated for the first time when I was 12 years old and it felt amazing. I repeated this experience the same day . I began masturbating with porn after a few months and have continued to do so...

Hey all, I am only 8 days into my current reboot. I have done a full 90+ days before but since I didn't have any outlet, I just reverted back to porn and sank deeper. Now, there are multiple women at my work that flirt with me. Also, several gay guys. I really like the one girl and she...

It has become abundantly clear that this persistent loneliness is going to be a factor in my life for a good while at least. I said the same thing about five years ago, fully expecting to be a completely different person at this point. I thought for sure I would be able to talk to people by now...

I've been incredibly lonely for most of my life. I have no family, no friends. I had a girl I loved but it didn't work out. I cannot easily go out and meet new people, nor do I really want to anymore. People are too unreliable and tricky. I cannot be emotionally dependent on another person ever...

My girlfriend and I are on our second go-around. Meaning, we broke up last year and got back together this year. One of the things I have noticed about her lately is that she is much more attached to me now than before. We have always spent much time together, whether before or after. She used...

I've been working hard on myself over the last couple of years. I eventually met a young woman. I quickly fell in love with her. She was very intelligent, yet very easy for me to talk to. She made me feel normal. It was nice. We became best friends and very quickly lovers. Somehow, within a few...

For context, I am Christian. I was in a conversation about faith and mental health, and I was asked specifically how renewing my faith assisted in my mental health (struggle with depression and anxiety). I did some reflecting and wrote a lot and thought I would share it here: I had been...

To start off, my longest streak so far this year was three days. Longest streak of all time was two weeks. Before those two weeks, I did PMO around twice a day and now around five times a week. Yeah, it got better, but my situation here is still rlly bad imo. After creating a NoFap account...

I'm of the opinion that p/m/o has made me extremely toxic. I've consumed porn almost daily for two and a half decades. Edging is something I made a habit of early on. The reality is that I'm everything I didn't ever want to be: bitter, selfish, negative, boring, awkward, unmotivated, resentful...

Hi everyone, I am not even sure where I should start from, so I guess I'll just start from the very beginning and let my thoughts guide my fingers over the keyboard (WARNING: is going to be a long post, maybe not even a cool one, but I really need to do this). To give you a broad idea of how...

Nofap isn't the cure for anything. It's just a way to improve yourself if it helps you. I followed nofap for 1 year f***ed up real bad by taking too much stress (I know I can only blame myself). During quarantine I didn't go out and started overthinking and overworking for my goals (more of...

This thread is dedicated to my return to the journey of freeing myself from negative habits associated with my porn use. If you can relate to what I am saying here, any questions or comments will be greatly appreciated. Thanks for reading! My Past Struggles/History of Current Situation I would...

All I can say is get help when you can. I've been dealing with a ton of depression and not realizing it. This past Monday I was a inpatient at a hospital for depression. I had to deeply realize that I was still struggling with this illness. I was avoiding everything, extremely low energy from...

Don't waste as much time as I did. Life is short and we need our sex energy: 1. Porn does major damage, but we CAN have something better 2. Relapse with "wholesome" regular masturbation is much less destructive than porn- but can provoke porn urges if one is not prepared, and it can easily be...

I just don't have the patience to sit and study anymore. (I'm in college). I feel this blasé feeling towards everything. It feels like I lost interest in life. Nothing is exciting. Do you guys feel excited about things? For me everything is meh , you know? I have no desire to work, study, hang...

When quarantine came around, I started a weight loss journey that changed my life. I was able to lose 60 pounds through diet and low intensity exercise. I went from 230 pounds to 170 pounds from that March to August. I felt great. However, I have gained half of that weight back. Thirty pounds...

I just want to express my thoughts and feelings about this, specifically onlyfans. I never paid for such a thing but I was thinking about it and I'm glad I never did because I realized how toxic and bad it can be. I remember a girl I liked from school rejected me and I thought to myself maybe I...

Wanted to make a post to see if there were any other sufferers of any kind of mental illnesses from all walks of life. Men, women, trans, old, young, from any part of the world on this forum. I myself am a sufferer of Bipolar II, Major Depression, C-PTSD, Anxiety, Insomnia, and that's it so far...

I don't know how to get rid of this feeling of loneliness i have inside of myself it fells like i am pretty useless and with nowhere to escape into. I'm done being a burden to people. I really am. I can't look myself in the eye and see a respectable person, i can't see anyone i feel empty. i...

My story, I think I started masturbating to phone sex when about 13, which racked up my parents phone bill. So imagination and fantasy to school girls and some Sunshine girls on the paper was mostly what I had. I started having access to internet porn with 18. Lesbian porn has always been my...

last evening i had a pretty hard binge session of porn and masturbation. I was installing a porn blocker in the first place and so as to check it i ended up searching for porn by first enabling it and then convincing myself to switch it off and try once again(was a pretty stupid decision I...

I'm 17 years old and am a porn addict. I used to watch porn every day to feel better and to reduce my social anxiety. A few months ago I discovered that porn is really bad. I thought it was just a bad habit but it turned out that it was a real addiction. I'm currently on day 6 without PMO, but...

I've recently started reading and watching videos related to Islam. I've already declared that there's only one God (Shahadah), given Zakat and have been reading the Quran for guidance in life. However, I've also struggled with many negative emotions (mental health issues) that have led me into...

Doesn't it hurt when you see your crush going out with a group of friends & you have to make sure that they aren't dating any of the guys? Whenever I am not involved in an outdoor activity with friends, I always feel like they'll forget about me & are okay without me. And this really kinda...

Today,15/12/2022 I am starting my nofap journey again.i decided to quit porn last year and successfully completed 5 mounths on nofap.after that I released and started again but after a month relapsed again after a month I relapsed after that I again relapsed after a week and now I am relapsing...

I'm on 40+ Days of NoFap, but I've been going through some hard depression times lately I've just come to a new country & right now my college is closed till Feb. On top of that I just can't Vibe with my college friends who are all from a different but common country(& so they have their own...

I'm trying to give up my vices. I switched from YouTube, to Netflix, to games. I'm halfway to 30 days on nofap, which I've only done twice before. I'm aiming for 90 days, maybe a whole year, but hoping for the rest of my life. I want to break out of my bad habits and routine. I want to make a...

Hi ! It's been 14 days today.. and life is soo much better with PMO gone.. I'm kinda 17. And PMO was around from when I was around 11. So, since the PMO gone, and my social interactions getting better.. This girl proposed me. I immediately said yes, but the next day I was full of anxiety up to...

Whenever I go to view the newest posts here, I find myself reading the first posts of newbies. After a while they seem to all sound the same: Argh, I’ve been struggling with PMO addiction for 7 years. My girlfriend cried when I couldn’t get it up, and now I’m depressed all the time and anxious...

I was on a streak of 22 days and I broke it by doing pmo twice in one day. I even had prec*m once. So I count it as 2.5 tumes relapse. My problems are :- Attention/memory problems Social Anxiety/ isolation Depression, mood swings, brain fog Acne on face and body , dull skin. Fatigue ...

So before I post this question/thought, I just want to say that the thought I am about to share does not resemble me in any shape or form, but I am just rather interested in the answers as it might help me keep my emotions & other insecurities in check. So imagine you're a guy like Chris...

Hi everyone, I'd like to pose this question to everyone who has suffered from depression during their addiction and recovery phases, as I'm curious about your experience regarding your symptoms and their alleviation, with or without the use of antidepressants. One question - which I assume a...

For starters, I’m a real-life lesbian, aka *not* the kind you’ve seen online (I can assure you that 95% of that stuff is fake af). Also, I’m probably older than some people on here. I’m on the autism spectrum as well, though I don’t believe that has a huge impact on how my brain responds to...

Hello everybody, this isn't my first account on here, I made my first account years ago and spent a lot of time here, so I'm not new to this, but I had a question... Have any of you developed severe (or less severe) chronic pain or illness from PMO addiction? I have all kinds of really bad...

It's been 242 days since I've been masturbation, and pornography has been banned for 5 days. I've never discharged a semen in my sleep. However, after I stopped pornography, I became more depressed, anxious, and my head is blank (suspicious of brain fog), and I don't feel happy in my daily life...

This is my first Thread, so if this does not belong in this category, please tell me. I am 19 years old, and i have been addicted to porn for about 10 years now. Most of the things i`ve seen have been things not involving real humans, as in Rule 34 and E621. I`ve seen it all, Furry, Loli...

I've been doing lots of research in the last year due to my own trials with PMO. It became clearer to me how completely damaging fapping may be for the human body and brain. I'd read scientific studies about androgen receptors, and the endocrine system. Testimonies from people who'd experienced...

Please help me. I am stuck and can't break from this cycle of guilt and lust (towards porn). I try, but every time I am overpowered by the urge to get a quick relief, get it over with as the imagery keeps on disturbing my thoughts my focus in whatever I am doing, only to fall in a deep dark well...

I am feeling severely lonely, empty from inside, frustration after failing different indian competitive exams many times. Failure is because of PMO and failure again leads to PMO in turn.

I've been sexting girls since I woke up. Literally the first thing I did was open my phone, download my sexting apps and start sexting random girls. It's 1.35pm now and I haven't drank anything, I haven't had breakfast. I smell like a dead animal and my hair is all fucked up. I feel like a...

I have been a social butterfly for as long as I could remember. However, there are two major problems with my relationships (both platonic and non-platonic). 1. None of my friendships are extended to after school settings. -> Over the past few years, I have moved nomadically from friend group...

I have been on Nofap for more than a couple years now and after many challenges and relapses, many sprawling withdrawals and difficulties because of fighting such addiction, I have tried everything. From simply fighting and meditating to food, disconnecting from socials, careful sleep, exercise...

If you can't address the trauma, then you can never truly get rid of the addiction. It's simply a self-medicating mechanism to cope with emotional pain. I have been an addict since I was 13 years old and I'm 21 years old now. I completely understand the mechanisms of addiction and I have been in...

Hello everyone This is seagulls here again. It’s been about 5 years since I have logged back on to nofap. I am really struggling with my life now. I have basically made no improvements in the last 5 years . I really don’t know how to beat this . This is going to be long and I do apologize , I...

I've been stuck in a cycle of relapse for weeks now and it's draining me physically and mentally. It seems like everytime I try to stop I realize how isolated and lonely I am and I just can't cope. I know really well what sexting and porn do to me, but I keep choosing it because it's somehow...

Hi Fapstronauts, Really need ur inputs . My story : I lost penis senstivity after a intense masturbation sensation 1 year ago . Tried lot of things but nothing worked to regain sensitivity on glans and penis I m also suffering from porn induced ED from 4 years. Cant do it with real girls but...

Hi Fapstronauts, Really need ur inputs . My story : I lost penis senstivity after a intense masturbation sensation 1 year ago . Tried lot of things but nothing worked to regain sensitivity on glans and penis I m also suffering from porn induced ED from 4 years. Cant do it with real girls but able...

The Story of my addiction I was 15, when I watched my first P. Before that first P, I watched a lot of nude images, I watched FTV swimwear models, etc. It's been 7 years and now I am 22 that I am addicted to that stuff. Things I am suffering now Addicted to adult sites, especially chat sites...

I'm just wondering if anybody on here is struggling with good, very good, friends fading away. Just focusing on their life's and not able to contact at all or even get in touch on IM. I have this Chinese friend and I actually miss her, there's no way of getting to contact her or talk on...

Any folks with bipolar disorder want to share how it changed their relationship with porn? I've always had issues with porn but after my bipolar diagnosis, its been extreme issues with porn. I'm quite well medicated at this point but do have hypomania and depression at times, both of which amp...

Hi! As the subject says, I am new to the NoFap forums but I have been aware of this awesome movement for a few years. Did not know there was an actual forum though, I only remember the reddit thread. Anyway, I've been fapping while using porn for about 15 years now and I'd like to stop. Simple...

Just feeling like I wanna relapse so bad rn. Today is just one of those days that remind me how insignificant in the grand scheme of things I really am. I feel alone and even though I have friends to call they're busy with their own lives to be bothered with me. I don't like calling them or...

It's been about a year and half since I watched P. In that time, I've MOed less than 10 times. I've been attempting NoFap for a little over 3 years now. The first two years was very difficult, but I was doing more with my life then. I was actually going to the gym, eating healthier, and my...

Step 1- Discover porn at a very young age, and use it to mask your insufferable qualities, and fear of talking to the girls you like. Step 2- Gradually delve deeper into the porn rabbit hole until there is seemingly no way back. Step 3- Discover that you may in fact be an addict to sexually...

I've felt so lost and hollow. I'm 22 years old now and have been in contact with pornography since I was 10 or 11. Initially, I wasn't bad...as I have gotten older, the frequency is becoming worse. Every year, for the past three years I've told myself I would stop for good. There have been times...

i am suffering from zero erection and also no morning erection. I have masturbation addiction of 14 years used to fap daily basis. My age is 27... will NoFAP give me my lost stamina and strength ? And how many days it will take to be a normal man with natural sexual stamina .... sorry for my...

It's been a month since I started to try and stop looking at p. My best run was 18 days but I relapse every 8 days or so. Im very depressed I can't find the motivation to study, work or do anything productive. I don't see the point to live anymore. I spend all my days laying in my bed doing...

Hi everyone I'm new here I'm looking for advice, I am currently on day 49 Nofap, Bit off a background, I have been addicted to pornography as far back as I can remember maybe 13 years old, I am currently 28 years old, soo 15 maybe plus years off an addiction, over the last few years it really...

I say this because I think either sex or my girlfriend going away for a week led mine to be fried. I was addicted to porn, which I no longer am. I can go several weeks and months without and get hard with my girlfriend easily. This is up until last Saturday. My head is massively brain fogged...

Only a 1 day without pmo and I have huge urges to masturbate. I can resist it for now, mainly, becouse Im struggling with serious mental illnesses. Finally managed to contact hospital. Im afraid to take any meds but I definitely need some help against my anxiety, depression, panic attacks...

TL;DR: I’m simply hopeless and there’s no cure for my case Hello, what I will write right now is basically a manifesto and conclusion of my personal failures, so sorry if it’s going to be long. Guys, I’ve been battling this addiction for two years now, I’ve been addicted for eight years...

I cant resist the urges and flashbacks from porn. Its like a hunger, you cant go on without it just like when you eat the hunger leaves but eventually comes back again. Feeling helpless, any good tips?

Hey everyone. I haven't posted here in a good while and I figured I'd make a quick post to share my progress. Today is day 105 of my streak and it's been a long road. The pits of my despair First let me start off by telling you about what my situation was like at the peak of my addiction. I...

This may be a slightly long read but it’s because i want to let you know all the details as I’m in DIRE NEED for HELP. So I’m a brown guy around 22, Pretty muscular and a handsome dude. I’ve never had any issues flirting with and picking up girls. In fact they’ve even admitted to me that I was...

Okay, so I am past day 50. I have not PMO’d and I am not going to. I have MO’d four times in these past 50+ days. Here’s my situation. Me. I am fit, workout regularly, look stupid young for my age (57), am a porn addict and have blown out my dopamine receptors from countless years of porn to the...

I feel like I'm sentencing myself to hell right now, I hope you guys understand. I'm tired of acting like everything is okay, and I'm so destroyed from my actions and desires I've been having suicidal thoughts lately. Here's my story. I've been a slave to P since 12 maybe? Not too sure. Keep in...

... but I'm afraid of what it will do with my relationship with our common friends. I have always been struggling with depression and anxiety, but recently it's gotten worse. I know one of the reasons. My now ex-bestfriend. Just over a year ago I realized just how toxic and manipulative he...

Hey all, Something happened recently that has really affected my life, brought me into a downward spiral. In short, I've had a porn addiction since I was about 12-13 years old (19 now). Of course, after this prolonged exposure to porn, it naturally escalated to more taboo and intense...

Currently I am recovering from a few times a week porn addiction and am on my 27th day of no relapse. This is the furthest I have ever gotten and I couldn’t be happier with that fact. But recently I have noticed that a bunch of the things I used to like doing, things I even liked doing when my...

My life is destroyed. I was 12 when i start mastrubation. When straight porn become boring i accidentally start transwoman porn(at age 16, pussy was boring, anal was cool), i had inner conflict every day and every week. It's makes me HOCD. At age 20 i saw some gay porn, lower part like but i had...

I have been struggling with nofap for a couple of years, and I have massively reduced my porn consumption, but I'm far from free. The first like 2 days it's a struggle, but I feel more and more energized the longer i remain PMO free. after like 5 days, my sex drive goes through the roof, but I...

Hey all, my partner and I just finished the 90 days of the reboot... he still doesn't feel healed yet though. I suffered extremely from the circumstances. I felt undesired, unwanted, unsexy, unseen... my self-confidence went in the cellar and I really don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I...

Hey there, I just relapsed this morning when I woke up horny, again. Maybe some of you guys can relate to it... That impulsive doing gave me no time to even think twice. I feel like I have no control over my mind, over my body. I really don't know what drives me to do it. I did not use porn to...

Today is my 36 day and i only masturbated once because i was trying to do external prostate massage as i have a prostatic engorgement for about 3 weeks and i can't urinate normally, so i decided to do this massage under warm water ,but during this massage i felt that i really need to release...

Hello everyone. I’ve been on and off NoFap for a little over a year. Thought it be good to share my addiction story and how it’s effected me. When I first tried masturbating I was very young, not even 12 years old. For some reason though when I would stroke I wouldn’t feel any sensation on my...

Hi everyone, I am a new Fapstronaut. I a freshman now, but I think I am addicted to masturbation. I really want to stop, because I know masturbating is affecting my concentration and my life. I am a straight A's student, but my addiction makes it very difficult for me to concentrate and get...

Hi. It's my first time here in a year and I'd like to share with you all how I currently feel about my life and porn addiction. I feel like I've reached a dead end with my life and there's no way out. I'm soon 21 years old and I've wasted my whole youth on porn. I've been feeling bad about it...

I have Epilepsy and it seems it has been getting worse since I've stopped watching porn and now started to try and stop masturbating. Music, Movies, Gaming as well as Anime are my top yet if I get really stressed rather than playing Battlefield or listening to Slayer I used to take 5 minutes to...

Hey! I'm a 22 year old male trying to abstain from PMO for as long as I can. I've been a masturbation addict since the very young age of about 5 years old (yes... seriously) and have been looking at porn since about the age of 11, and have recently decided to quit both these things, as well as...

Hello strugglers! I wanted to share with you this little trophey of almost 4 months I have been abstaining from porn. I am a 32 years old man that has been consuming porn since the age of 15. I don´t remember one sexual relationship where I could manage to have a full erection. I discovered...

It's been about a year and a half since I last posted and a lot has happened, not for the better. First, I had a mental health episode that lead to me losing my job. After yet another defeat from PMO I found myself wanting to eat my feelings so I drove off into the night to get some greasy fast...

Hey guys, I have struggled with PMO, MO and P fantasies since I was a teenager (I am actually 25). During all this time I didn´t think I had a problem. I just thought it was something common, something every of my friends do. Nevertheless, during quarentine, and specially this year where I have...

Hi guys, today is the 2 day and 1h over my counter. And I'm really sad , depressed and frustrated. Because of my addiction and in the same time I felt with urge to stand and watch some porn and masturbate to. Although I'm completely depressed and i hate myself for relapsing. In the same time I...

Hi, The day before yesterday(22day of reboot) i was watching sexy pics with bare breast and parts of vaginas because I was avoiding porn pics.i saw some pussies but it was not a lot it was just few. And in some times i was feeling I'm completely driven,so i tried to stop and i closed the app. İ...

Hey all. So I'm 62 days in. I've experienced a lot of benefits, but I still deal with what I assume are withdrawal symptoms. I want to see whether or not anyone else experiences this one particular symptom. Your body doesn't want you to do anything. You have the desire, the motivation etc...

Hey guys! Just wanted to see if anyone has had similar experiences to me. Now that I'm doing NoFap I have a problem. I just bought an Xbox and whenever I go to play it my brain gets all weird and I start thinking that I hate myself and that it isn't pleasurable and it becomes really stressful...

I'm on day 7 of a reboot and I'm going crazy. im back to wanting to end it all. I want to shut myself in and be alone. I'm constantly in pain. I really really want to PMO but am desperately fighting that desire. I'm weak after keeping myself from doing it for so long. I don't know how to get...

I am 18 now and being activley going in and out of nofap since i was 13. I lost my orgasm at young age from death grip that bad i can't even get it from myself anymore. Starting at about 13-14 i was looking at loli and material like that. I even searched pics and vids of teens (same age as me)...

Since this whole lockdown started around March 15th I've been for the most part, single.. For the most part most nights i was keeping myself warm.. Now as the year is wrapping up im reflecting.. finding positives and negatives about spending this year alone.. A positive is i know more about who...

As I am typing this I feel like I am going to have a panic attack. Nothing is happening, literally nothing. I am just sitting here, typing this post yet my anxiety is through the roof. It's constant, day in, day out. Some days it's worse than others but it is always there, this intense...

I woke up today, got out of bed, made tea, listened to a lecture on youtube. It wasn't there, that inescapable feeling of dread, it is GONE. There is hope guys, as long as we stand there will be. I will never stop fighting, there is meaning in this suffering. We woke up for a reason. I'll keep...

My girlfriend of 3 and a half years broke up with me a few months ago. I knew it was coming, and it was more of a mutual thing. But it hurts like hell. Porn was the easy distraction. I stopped using porn for the last year of our relationship. I felt guilty everyone I used. But this breakup put...

My anxiety is through the fucking roof, the smallest things give me panic attacks. Like right now, I'm just laying down and my anxiety won't go away. I also feel like I'm constantly on the verge of tears and I have no motivation to do anything. I hate this so much, why can't I just be fucking...