My Root Cause of Porn Addiction & the Benefits of a Successful Reboot

I first looked at porn when I was 12 years old (I am almost 60 now) and I was immediately addicted even though I was ashamed of my actions. Despite a successful career and a great wife and family, I lost self-esteem and even minor set backs in life brought thoughts of suicide to mind. As I struggled to change, I identified and tried to avoid triggers & situations of vulnerability. However, until my successful 100 day reboot, I failed to acknowledge the most basic cause of my addiction. I welcomed & nurtured a constant lust for women's bodies. In addition to porn, I chose movies, TV shows & videos based on faces & bodies of the female actors. When reading the news online, I clicked on articles that promised a pretty face or an attractive figure. I chose books with sexy passages in them. I continuously sought out and welcomed such images to pollute my mind! Thanks to the 100 day goal, daily prayer, a series of audio books called "The Gospel as Revealed to Me" by Maria Valtorta, and God's grace, I have learned the ability to manage my thoughts and quit seeking the images & situations that were destroying me. At times, I am still tempted and expect I always will be, but I have found the desire to turn away from lust and to closely guard my eyes and my mind from dangerous images. My self-esteem is building and I am learning not to judge myself by other's opinion of me. I pray you all may gain this grace. God loves you unconditionally and no human is fit to judge you.