My status after 30 days of NoFap

Hey guys, just wanted to share my current status since I left PMO on January 6th.

I'd like to say that it has been difficult, but actually it wasn't that hard. I began my masturbation addiction at age 9 and then at age 16 I found myself using porn daily. I am now 25 and with 30 days free of PMO. However, I am kind of disappointed because today February 7th 2016, I feel like the same guy I was 30 days before. I still procrastinate, I get anxious and I still think a lot of sex. I do want to share the few little things that I may have noticed a change on.

THINGS I SEE A CHANGE IN:

1. As I began the NoFap challenge (setting my goal for a 90 days "hard mode" reboot) I also started playing beach volley ball on weekends with some friends. I've never been a sports guy but I'm feeling like I am becoming better at it. Years before, while I still masturbated and watched porn daily, I would have felt weaker and scared of the ball. Nowadays I feel braver to go get the ball and to try and do risky things on each game. It may not be much, but I feel a tiny change.

2. About girls, I am feeling a tiny little subatomic bit of change. I'm a little less nervous around them and more up to go and talk to an unknown pretty girl. I've also got like 3 or 4 numbers of girls. Maybe a little testoserone is making changes?

3. I'm not feeling a strong desire for porn anymore. Before starting the challenge (and also on the first days) I would feel a strong need to go on an incognito tab and start browsing hot girls. But right now I don't feel it. Well, I still go on social media and waste a ton of time there, but while watching a random pic of a girl on Facebook or Instagram, I feel the porn need is becoming weaker. However today I have taken precautions and just unfollowed every account that may tempt me into masturbation, because Instagram is filled with hot girls and maybe I will not be able to handle the images.

4. I haven't been depressed for the past 30 days. Maybe bored and sometimes really angry, but not depressed. I have also gone out with friends a bit more. Before that I would just stay at home doing nothing, and maybe thinking about watching porn.

THINGS I STILL DON'T SEE A CHANGE IN:

1. My desire for sex. With every morning erection I start thinking about girls I know, and how I'd like to have sexual intercourse with them. I think and fantasize a lot about it. I don't know if it's wrong to do it.

2. I don't feel more enlightened, I still feel that my inteligence is repressed. I still procrastinate, I still don't do what I have to do at home, at the office, etc.

3. I don't feel a different energy for my daily life. I don't feel like a different, changed person. As I said before I feel a little more energy for beach volley and I don't feel a strong urge for porn, but I am not renewed as most of guys that have taken this challenge state they had felt.

NEW THINGS I'VE FELT

I feel like an recovering addict. Let me exemplify: last year I visited my best friend, who lives in another city, and on that weekend he introduced me to a girl I liked a lot. He told me I should give her a try, despite her disinterestest on me, and I did. I started talking to her, even went out with her a couple times while having the chance of being in that city. However, a series of issues are making me consider my position: she lives near him, they go out a lot, he's almost 10 years ahead of me on seduction matters, and he's never been a PMO or MO addict, he does not like to masturbate (you can now imagine his testosterone levels). Then he told me she spent a night with her last week, so they slept together. He insists that I should keep giving her a try, but most of the times I call her, he's right there with here (WTF right?).

This situation has lead me to the thought that I'm just a single recovering addict, with a 30-day testosterone level, against a 10-year testosterone god. He insists I should just have a one night stand with her, but guys, PMO built on me a lot of emotional issues I can't control. I'm not even going to try because I know I cannot swim in those waters.

CONCLUSION

Well this has been my first 30 days, but I really want to get to 90. These past days I had felt a little stronger need to masturbate (not for porn). And as some of you said, when you start an abstinence you may become more susceptible for any kind of girl. Maybe girls that are not insanely hot, but that are well dressed may ignite us into thinking about sex, thus getting us excited. That's why I unfollowed a lot of Instagram accounts and FB profiles. Also I am going to stop any attempt with that girl. My friend will have all the chances now.

Do you guys have any advice?
Thanks.