Hello, NoFap community. Thank you for existing. I must say first that this community helped me a lot in the past 2 years while I am trying to reboot. I have been an active member for a year now, and I have made very good progress. For a guy who watched porn many times per day, sometimes even more than 10, I managed to watch porn only 2 times in the last 365 days and to reduce masturbation to 2 times or less per week. But, that is not good enough, I know I am still addicted. Now, in the last few months, I have a problem with sleep more than ever. But over the years, I kinda learned how to live with it, but still, I would like what other reporters think about this. I did my research and I tried all basic stuff, like meditation and workout before sleep, hot beverages, walking, not using phone, reading etc... And memories from the past. This is more important than a sleep problem. It might be even a reason I have trouble sleeping. I would like to hear what you guys think about it, and how to deal with it. - I am one of many guys who used porn as medication, to deal with stressful situations in life, and somehow, I use it to forget all 'bad' things I have done in the past. I didn't kill a man or stuff like that, But I have done many things I am not proud of. (I also forget many bad things that happened to me and I am feeling very bad about them even they were not my fault, they just happened) Now, these memories are coming back to me all at once and I can not control them at all. I am realizing that I was, or I am a person that I don't like, or I am a person very different from what I think I am. And for most of the time, this is my trigger to relapse, I am feeling very bad, depression is worse than ever. Is this the healing process, if it is, I am not sure that I want to be healed. - Please don't misunderstand this, I don't want to be addicted to porn anymore, but this is just so painful, I am not sure that person can go through this. Sorry for the long post, and sorry if I missed the thread, I was not sure where to post it. Also, I am sorry if something is not understandable, I tried my best to explain my situation in English which is not my first language. I would love if there is no one else having problems like me, but if there is some, please share your thoughts. Thanks!