NEED HELP!

I'm 31 years old. I'm surgical resident close to finishing my career and starting my own practice. I got married in 2020 to the woman of my dreams. We had a child that is now 3 months old. But this entire time I've been hiding a horrible secret that only recently came to light new years eve. I had been having an affair for 6 months with a coworker. Not only that but we were deeply, deeply in love. I believe it is due to my sex addiction I ended up there in the first place.

I first discovered porn at 8 years old on television. Since then I have been addicted to the female body and sexual release. Since this time to now I can count the number of days I haven't masturbated to porn on one hand. I was always less than attractive and awkward with women. I often had girlfriends and lost my virginity but even then I had issues with performance from how often I would masturbate. The isolation and addiction only grew in college and medical school and I began to try alcohol and drugs to replace or lessen the major addiction I faced.

When I started residency I for the first time I had some disposable income and I started to frequent strip clubs. I noticed that real female contact, even manufactured would allow me to have some control over the porn viewing. This went on for a year and of course like many addicts I escalated the amount of time and activity at the strip club. I accidently met a great woman and we hit it off. We had such a natural easy connection and I knew things were special. We started to seriously date and I stopped going to strip clubs. We eventually got married 2 years ago. However the porn watching continued. As we were getting close to getting married I started texting a coworker inappropriately. Again this gave me some control over the porn addiction. This coworker left to go work somewhere else. My wife became pregnant and I felt great pressure to stop the porn addiction. Out of no where working overnight with a coworker we struck a great bond. She was perfect for me in every single way. We would text each other randomly throughout the day within seconds of each other. Like we both could only stand to be without talking the exact amount of time. We had dreams of each other. We enjoyed the same music, art, philosophy. We started to have sex and we had the most amazing sex of our lives. I felt this person was my one and only soul mate. And all I would need to be happy forever was her. My porn use dropped to nothing or maybe once a week. However recently we were discovered new years eve. Her husband left her and my wife and me decided to try to work things out for the baby. I finally came clean about my porn use and how I believe it led to this infidelity. However the infidelity led to true and deep love. I miss this other person so much but know that trying to work things out with my wife for the sake of the child is the right thing to do.

I need to get a handle on my porn addiction, I can be a very strong person when I have to. I have been reading more about it. I joined a church group and a sex addicts anonymous zoom meeting. I went 10 days recently which was the longest Ive gone in a very long time and relapsed. I realize I need help and figured I could find like minded people here.

Any advice or commentary on my dilemmas would be appreciated