New Challenger and REALLY struggling

I'm in my mid 40s, and in a bad marriage. Haven't had sex in years with my wife. So porn and masturbation have been my life. Several times/day. I did the typical progression with porn escalating the genre to satisfy my increasing tolerance levels, and got into some very hardcore stuff, though nothing illegal. I'm definitely experiencing PIED, as I can no longer get aroused, even with erection medication . I'm in good shape, and have seen a cardiologist, endocrinologist, and urologist, and they come up with nothing, after a barrage of tests and blood work. All my tests come back normal, and my testosterone is in the higher end of normal. I'm very concerned with that and my struggles with blood pressure, lack of sleep, and weight loss despite exercising rigorously 3x/week and in a low carb/low dairy diet (I'm 5'10", 230 lbs), so I started a challenge 1 week ago today after reviewing your website. I didn't see any number of days in mind, just until I see results, I guess. I really don't know what else to do.

I am struggling to say the least. I don't seem to have any problem shutting down the porn, but I feel like a heroin addict who quit cold turkey with the masturbation. I feel my heart is pounding, needing the release and I can't concentrate, as I'm constant fantasizing. What doesn't help is that my 2 jobs, have me working with women of all ages, and especially young adults (18+). I'm a college professor, and these young women just look so good, especially with all the leggings. Every semester I inevitably get the struggling cute one who asks, "is there ANYTHING I can do to help my grade?" My other job is a massage therapist, and often times unhappy house wives will talk, or I get college athletes or co-workers that really stir things up in my head after I work on them. All this would lead to a night and next morning of mental fantasies. But after I was done with my self fulfillment, it was done in my head, and I could move on. But since I've stopped all PMO, I can't stop thinking about some of these women, to the point of almost obsession. i can't move on with my day, I can't sleep at night, it's all I think about. I've never crossed a professional line with any of them, I think because I've always had it under control, but I'm afraid now, if one of these women were to proposition me, I wouldn't be able to resist. I obviously can't quit my jobs, or alter them to a different class or clientele. I need the money. Right now, my motivation is getting my full ability to perform back. But I really need help. Ive tried exercise, movies, limiting alone time. I need help please if anyone has any suggestions. Could use a lot of support..

 

What do you do to get your mind off things when you're going crazy?