New Fapstronaut, Maco

Hello all. I am a 19 yo student at VT with a big problem on my hands and a respectable sized problem in my hands.
I have seen psycologists and psychiatrists, I have been medicated and called clinically depressed, I have experienced feelings of anxiety and inadequacy, I have tasted love and success. Really I'm a mess with an arrousal addiction and potential that I am not sure I will ever meet.
My addiction began when I was introduced to porn in 4th grade and i might never have gone more that a week without porn since the beginning. It is a daily ritual to me and oftentimes I struggle just to keep myself from letting hours at a time go to porn.
I know myself. I could have an impressive physique. I could be a great friend to great people. I could be extremely successful in my studies. I could be energetic and excited for the future. I could at least be less numb to life as it goes on around me.
This scares me and I don't know if I can find to willpower to cut porn out of my life. But I am eager to hear your stories and be a part of this community.

Starting day 1 now.