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So I'm a 20-something gay male who has for a while had the feeling that my masturbation habits might be counter-productive to my goals in life - when I have free time that could be used to be creative, I fail to do that. When I am busy and have a lot to do, I use it to procrastinate. And before going to bed and when I wake up, I often find myself wasting my time doing that with often no real benefit. In terms of porn, I don't consume an extreme amount or anything extreme but it's still becoming an unwelcome distraction in my life. I don't know if I have a problem, if this is healthy behavior, if it is normal and if i should or shouldn't be complacent with being normal...but my main thing is, if i didn't have sex and masturbation on my mind constantly (and taking up my time) I could probably be more successful at my goals in terms of both career and personal. I'll be honest, I also have no real idea how this site works and after navigating it I still don't understand how it will actually help me and how I'm supposed to use it - I also have no experience in using internet forums and find them confusing. But at this point, I'd like to commit myself to changing...even if it's not a huge problem for me, which also...I guess it could be? And I guess that's another reason I am here - to work out if it's actually a problem or not and what I want to do. This is all an incoherent rant, but sometimes putting my thoughts down in words is the easiest way to make sense of them...and well, I guess putting them out there on this site is a way of committing myself to something. Here goes nothing.

 

Thank you man for the advice, I'll definitely check out your journal. Thanks for reaching out, I appreciate the support!