No m untill end of june

I am P free for quite some time now.
During exams I will go hard mode because I know how fast it can go and your checking out some Psubs you shouldn't be checking out. Even though they aren't as bad as p, they make me feel more awkward and I hate that.
Same thing with m alone. I don't know why cause rationally I see no wrong in m without any stimuli but I feel sooooo shitty afterwards that I want to stop it for a longer period of time now.
Can't be the final solution because it makes me ejaculate superfast when I am having real sex.
Anyway I am in for another hard mode.
I will write a short update every few days to help keep me on track.