No More thinking with the D

Ok, so before anyone accuses me of being an idiot for spelling monk wrong in my name, I now realise this, but it's too late to change so it stays like that.

Down to the serious business; this nofap conundrum, where do I begin..

I have contemplating giving it a try for maybe a year or so now, after previously beating the meat religiously to porns - morning and night, sometimes even noon, for as long as I can remember.

That part of my life is now a thing of the past, as I have been able to control myself for a while now, usually going a week or two before relapsing. The common trigger always seems to be when I go out on a heavy drinking session, and the following day I get that uncontrollable urge which you are all familiar with. I think it's because when you're feeling rough, your body is in a vulnerable state and naturally you want to be comforted and feel more relaxed to take the edge off the hangover. With that said I have become more conscious of my alcohol intake and know my limits and what will tip me over the edge. For some people this is easy, but as a red blooded Irishman having a good drink on the weekends is like second nature.

I have done a little bit of research on this topic recently and have seen mixed views on whether masturbation is healthy or not, heck, even the bible doesn't address this issue really. From my experience I find that it does release tension and makes me quite relaxed for a period of time, but there is also that fog which I've seen some posters on here refer to, where I'm overly chilled to the point where I barely feel alive and then there becomes an onset of darkness for a spell lasting a few days give or take. On the flip side, when I abstain after a week I find my testosterone levels keep building and at points I can become rather aggressive and hot headed, yet my overall mood tends to increase as I'm less prone to depressive thoughts.

I'm currently about 11 days in and feel motivated to keep riding this wave of positive momentum. I'm a single guy, and for a long time I tried so many things to make myself attractive to women, yet there I was jerking off and wasting seed everyday with little to no success in the women department. Now I've changed careers and work in a large office environment for a couple months now, and I notice women be looking - feeling my energy - as my confidence increases on the daily.

Updates to follow.