NoFap at Christmas

This will be my 3rd Christmas where I wont be engaging in PMO and for whatever reasons, I've found that the urge to engage in these behaviors is exceptionally strong this time of the year. Its a lot stronger but at the same time I've found that it also gives back in proportion to how difficult things can be. What I mean by that is, its difficult to not engage in the behaviors but when I dont I learn lots of new things about myself, life, other people and the reasons why we do the crazy acting out things we do. And it seems at times like all of this is actually a gift. Not something to battle against or try to contain, but something thats trying to act as a guide to when Im off course. Not something I can understand on an intellectual level but something deeper and less rational. Because lets face it, none of this appears rational. At least not from where we are. But my guess is at the end of all this, looking back, we'll be able to see clearly the reasons why we were led in a certain direction and not another.
Anyway has anybody else noticed and increase in difficulty at this time of the year?

 

Im just across the pond from you, in dublin so its pretty much the same here. Although its actually very mild right now.
So you reckon its just a winter blues kinda thing........for me I love the winter so that much doesnt affect what I do in relation to acting out. Honestly I dont have much in the way of family so maybe thats why I find it harder, being the season to be with your family and all. Brings up difficult emotions. But its all good because If i was to engage in pmo im pretty sure if feel horrendous. Its funny something I:ve noticed is that the things we do to make ourselves feel better are the things that destroy us and make us suffer.

 

Well its now the 28th december and yeah, I think there is a link between junk food and the urge to PMO. Christmas was a challenge this year, more so than the previous years. I discovered something interesting though, theres an insecure, scared voice operating in the back round of my thoughts. Its telling me I need to fap or else something bad will happen like I'll lose my sex drive or I'll end up alone and never have sex again. And then theres non sex related thoughts, just about life in general and how bad a person I am. And this causes me to suffer and the urge to escape from that suffering via PMO is massive. But then I remember what eckhart tolle said, that we create our own suffering. And its true, theres no need for it at all. So Ive just allowed it to happen, that voice, seeing it for what it is and what its trying to sabotage. I think its why so many people fail at this, because they cant see whats really going on underneath the surface.
Anyway lads hold on and dont surrender, ever.