3 years of struggle, with 2 full one months, followed by epic binges with a couple of times a day. It's hard, we know it's hard otherwise we would not need this forum. But I cannot overlook it anymore. Fapping made my life horrible for the most part and I know this first date of the month is the next "NEW" beginning, another excuse if you will filled with new hope. It could be a new excuse, but my motives behind it are still pure and it could manifest to the vision I want - first February, then 90 days then for life!