Good God, relapsed 3 times today. I can't go more than 5 days without relapsing. My mind had been broken, and I feel so terrible, like I've lost everything, my life force, essence. Everything has gone wrong due to this addiction, and I just want things to be the way they were a few months back. This is the worst thing known to man, I'm suffering so much. Don't get involved in wasting your semen, you will regret it for the remainder of your life.