Basically I see myself as worthless if I have relapsed. If I have gone on a longer streak, like at least 3 weeks, I start interpreting things positively and am more confident in social interactions etc. If I relapse, or even just edge, I immediately feel that all value in myself as a person is gone, and I start interpreting people's behaviour toward me negatively, like they suddenly no longer like me. I know nofap gives you confidence which helps socially, but I feel like my view is too extreme. I literally feel like everyone hates me when I am not on a long streak.
