Odd timing

So about a week after my reboot started I met a girl and soon after we really hit it off. I like her, she like's me but we're both kind of getting over someone so it'll be a slow ride before we can think of being "official". Granted I need that slow ride.

So my last gf was basically a human sex toy to me. I hated it because I couldn't control myself and no matter how badly I wanted to end things with her I couldn't and we would end up having sex. Even if she didn't want to I knew how to push her buttons just the right way. It wasn't up to her. I hate that about myself.

Anyway part of me wants to tell her about my journey and part of me says she doesn't need to know yet. I live in fear of relapsing because even if she doesn't know about it I have let her down.

PMO ruined any shot of having a normal relationship. I find myself between a rock and a hard place because I feel like I shouldn't date as to avoid the female body until I've abstained for x amount of time, but on the other hand dating the right person may help me along.