Don't know why but I feel anxious this am and strong urges to deal with my head space by getting into my old pattern of going online and getting into trouble. I'm a bit depressed this morning. i want to look at P and all the other stuff I did that surrounds it. I'm lonely and bored and anxious.... i used to escape all this by PMO etc. I need to make a plan for the day to meet with friends or something or I'm gonna slip. I don't want to. It is so easy to just think I should hop on line and start getting lost in f'd up behavior. Uggh. I need to just take some actions. My gym opens in 30 minutes so maybe I'll go kill it at the gym today. Writing about this stuff so I don't PMO instead. Grateful for the support. Day 12 may be a bit challenging. Doing the hard reboot and seeing what's next in this adventure.
thanks for the comment. much appreciated. heading out to the gym soon... then maybe outdoors somehow...
