I'm almost in 5 days without fapping, and I don't even really have a desire to do so! What is wrong with me?! I have noticed I seem to be paying more attention to my female friends, communicating with them and listening and caring a bit more than I do usually though, but that may have nothing to do with it.
That's great! Each day adds up. But think of it this way: what is RIGHT with you is that you are thinking less about sex, masturbation and porn, and are thinking more about your friends and enjoying other things that life has to offer.
Actually I've just been thinking more about study and how petrified I am to go back to uni aged 25/26 as a mature student, knowing I'll be there for the next 6 years. But yeah, I simply have been avoiding too much sexual thoughts. I've had them, but havent masturbated, and definitely haven't looked at porn.
In the U.S., we call them "non-traditional students" - students who go back to college at age 21/22 or older. If you're serious about going back, try to see if there is special counseling/advisement for older students. Someone might be able to help you with the practical things (picking out classes, scheduling classes, etc.) as well as give you some advice. I wish you the best in your pursuing a(nother) degree.
Thank you. The thing, im not the type of person who will settle in life for something like ''plumber'' or a career that I haven't carved my way to. I studied music originally, but to make descent money in music is extremely difficult, you have to be the best of the best and live in London basically. Then I studied a degree in nutrition. Little did I know to make enough money to live on in nutrition is difficult, and you have to teach it as well. I figured the very least I could do is add to my CV with a relevant degree in another area, which also has the options of post-grad study. So here I am, going back again.. and most likely will do a Bsc and then a PHD. It just upsets me seeing everyone else settling down early and I'm studying and working towards a 'life'. But maybe it's just my mind set, there are absolutely loads of mature students. Thank you for the encouragement.
And by the way, Im almost on day 6! I've noticed that I've started to get 'morning wood' again! It's not 'hard', more semi, but wow... I still have no desire to look at porn, I feel too busy and wound up about uni to do it.
Good luck jw. Dont trust too much in the easy times, but use them to shore up your confidence and resistance for when the wolves return.