I'm aggrevated at myself.I didn't fap but I looked at something sexual a little too long last night and my juices got flowing again.Mentally and emotionally I mean.I noticed yesterday that after a little over a week my head had cleared.And after three hard days of not giving in when I usually do.The urge like totally subsided.Yesterday afternoon I had a small but noticeable like switch happen.I guess my body and mind realized I wasn't gonna give in so its like my mind stopped focusing on sex and pleasure.That hasn't happened like that in a very long time.It was pretty cool like I could see how in keeping this going seeing life without sexual thoughts coloring everything.But last night I looked at something sexual a little too long and my juices got flowing again.Didn't jerk off but I don't have that clarity today even more so I believe if I wouldn't have looked last night.So kinda took a step back but I'm still pressing on today.I realize in this 30 day chill I have to avoid any looks glances and thoughts.
