PAWS after 14 months They are still visiting me, like in the last couple of days. They feed on weaknesses. Being in some system state bothers me and I have bad dreams, anxiety, ectopic beats, restlessness. But I recognize it as it comes. And it is getting smaller and smaller, that part of me. Still scary. I know it now: it was PMO. I look back and see the downfall. The abyss was luring. I thought it was harmless. How stupid. I did not improve in other areas of my life and I only want to be content with myself. I am getting there. Abstention. As someone said, you are not horny, you are just bored.
