I'm having a hard time today. Feeling depressed. This afternoon i went for a half hour swim. Felt a lot better, but there is this huge emptiness. Everyday i keep on reading this post. It helps me a lot. I read an interesting post about the fact that the focus is too much on counting the days. After a certain amount of days there is a relapse, and the endless cycle continuous. Porn is the symptom. The actual problem is the tendency to escape life. The real challenge is to change these behavior to feel better again. I am trying to, but i still feel there is a lot of work to be done here. I'm trying to be zen today, and realizing that suffering is part of life. I don't wan't to be a slave anymore.
